Shields and shells

I have days when I am very sensitive to the news in a way that I physically feel every item of negativity and hate. I will feel physically ill and ache, especially in my throat and heart chakra areas. I have not recognized a pattern to the sensitivity. But I have been aware of fugues like this that occur to me for several years now. Really, I do not understand why they occur more frequently, considering the world we live in. During these, I fight to try to look at things positively and without judgment, not only is this extremely difficult, but it leaves a sense of mental oppression. Reading the Times, the Economist, the FT,even the Metro, especially when the outlook for the European economy is suddenly gloomy creates an intense awareness of all the evil, negativity, hate and ugliness in the world. How do we even shield it away every day? There could be two ways to look at it. Either there is the Normal, and on some days the force of it all becomes hyper clear, as if someone gave you alternate spectacles; or that we have shields that work Most Days, and then sometimes, as opposed to placing a new lens on, the shield falls away and you glimpse what the World is Really Like outside of your shield. Not only do I then question the sanity of my shield but the concept of luck, or blessedness, that I have one that is very strong when many others do not.