Continental Breakfast
The Horizon Effect has struck again meaning men continually flow in and out of my personal scope (some with value, some worthless). Beyond the horizon flow some, others come into focus again. The Continental Playboy emailed and he is in town next week. We are going to a Mayfair spa after work on Monday, and then to dinner. He has below zero relationship potential, but he is intelligent, charming, stylish, sophisticated and handsome. Just because it will not lead to a relationship, does not mean it is a waste of my time. I think that spending time with Continental is challenging for me because he is very sensual European, whilst i am anti-sensual protestant american. Thus to spend time with him, i have to let go of my socialized judgments and be comfortable with this side of me. And i think it is affecting me; I have never gotten the compliment that i am sexy, but this year i have heard that many times. it always surprises me to hear it; when we change i think it is difficult to readjust our view of ourself so that there is a lag time. others see you with more honesty at times than you can.
Additionally, The Columbian called. He is cool guy, but emotionally high maintenance. I don't think i will be accommodating about finding time to meet him. It always has to be on his terms and i have yet to reap any rewards physically or mentally. He draws from me but can't give anything back. yet, he makes a good friend and is perfect arm candy. The fact that he is very smart makes the candy aspect perfect. But i need to receive the benefits too, and he has yet to perform there. This is the Marginal Utility Effect. When you are putting time and energy into a relationship (NB could be at any point on the relationship spectrum, from casual friend to boyfriend) but it is not paying you back any dividends or growth. Lovely bloke, bad investment.
Finally, London may be a city of over 8 million people, and huge geographically, but it does remind me almost weekly that it still a small interconnected world. It is comforting at times. Odd how coincidences reassure me that there is a grand design to life. In my opinion. As I mentioned, the date I had with Chez Playboy was never followed up with another call. And I was disappointed. I would have liked the opportunity to get to know him better, and there was chemistry there to make the process fun and zingy. But no text or call and I can't be bothered to ring him. He is a big boy and I don't want to waste my time if not wanted (see don't waste the pretty). But, but: my fab mate Shell's beaux, is in the same industry, and she is going out with a group of persons one of whom used to work with CP. Ha ha!! At least i have the benefit of getting inside gossi. My guess is that CP has an onagainoffagain SO.
But as my good mate Paul wrote: "Aim higher than a burger flipper. Think Hedge Fund Manager. More money = more fun". I could not stop laughing. With a sagacity I didn't know he had, he made me feel better in 30 seconds.
And now i will begin my weekend in the theme of as much fun for as little money as possible.
Additionally, The Columbian called. He is cool guy, but emotionally high maintenance. I don't think i will be accommodating about finding time to meet him. It always has to be on his terms and i have yet to reap any rewards physically or mentally. He draws from me but can't give anything back. yet, he makes a good friend and is perfect arm candy. The fact that he is very smart makes the candy aspect perfect. But i need to receive the benefits too, and he has yet to perform there. This is the Marginal Utility Effect. When you are putting time and energy into a relationship (NB could be at any point on the relationship spectrum, from casual friend to boyfriend) but it is not paying you back any dividends or growth. Lovely bloke, bad investment.
Finally, London may be a city of over 8 million people, and huge geographically, but it does remind me almost weekly that it still a small interconnected world. It is comforting at times. Odd how coincidences reassure me that there is a grand design to life. In my opinion. As I mentioned, the date I had with Chez Playboy was never followed up with another call. And I was disappointed. I would have liked the opportunity to get to know him better, and there was chemistry there to make the process fun and zingy. But no text or call and I can't be bothered to ring him. He is a big boy and I don't want to waste my time if not wanted (see don't waste the pretty). But, but: my fab mate Shell's beaux, is in the same industry, and she is going out with a group of persons one of whom used to work with CP. Ha ha!! At least i have the benefit of getting inside gossi. My guess is that CP has an onagainoffagain SO.
But as my good mate Paul wrote: "Aim higher than a burger flipper. Think Hedge Fund Manager. More money = more fun". I could not stop laughing. With a sagacity I didn't know he had, he made me feel better in 30 seconds.
And now i will begin my weekend in the theme of as much fun for as little money as possible.
posted by miss goLondon at 9:29 AM
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yossarian, why cant i go to your blog?
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